grow

升到5后,老板和老板的老板在不同时段提到我需要grow其他人

于是最近对grow产生了兴趣

不是grow自己,而是grow别人

g很看重grow

提供各种各样的资源grow

比如网课,比如mentor

其实教养孩子也就是grow他们

有一个基本原则就是你不要帮他们把所有事情都做了

要给他们responsibilities,给他们ownership,让他们自己去drive一些projects

别人多做些东西,你也可以少做些东西

不仅如此,别人还grow了,可以帮你做更多的东西

在家里也一样,毛毛不用我们帮忙带隐形眼镜,真是省了不少事儿

毛毛说,我还可以帮助豆豆数学作业,中文作业

真是个省心的孩子

还有什么原则呢?

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debug tool and investigation

world are complex

everything can easily become complex

and not transparent

like human illness

like software crashing

something wrong but we cannot see

to fix it, we need to understand

to understand, we need to look inside

to look inside, we need to investigate

to investigate, we need tool

a tool to visualize what happened inside

it’s vision, deep vision.

比诺曹

半夜醒来突然想起比诺曹的故事

越想越多睡不着觉

把唔到的东西写下来免得忘

我们每个人其实都是比诺曹

我们看似是个自由的活人,其实不是

我们处于三个阶段

第一个阶段是马戏团阶段

我们追逐名利

后果是被囚禁

第二个阶段是Treasure island

我们放弃了自己的责任,追求享乐

成了罪的奴仆

第三个阶段是自我救赎

我们跟随圣灵,逃离treasure island

去寻找父亲

并牺牲自己

然而死而复活,成为真正的人

在第一个阶段我们仍然是木偶。第二个阶段连木偶都不是了,我们变成了驴,第三个阶段从半木偶半驴变成真正的人

电影中木匠应该指的是天父上帝

Jiminy cricket代表圣灵。有种说法是Jesus Christ。

狐狸和猫代表这个世界,世俗的文化

Coachman代表魔鬼撒旦

天父造了我们,希望我们成为real man,然而我们不听从圣灵的声音,被世界裹挟,去追求名利,陷入名利的牢笼。我们又被撒旦所诱惑,坐上通往地狱的马车。然而上帝等不到我们回家,心里焦急,出门四处寻找。我们在陷入牢笼之后,才开始想到家的温暖,想回家,想去寻找父亲。圣经说,寻找,就寻见。当我们决意寻找天父的那一刻,我们就注定被救赎,不仅脱离牢笼,成为自由的人,而且寻见天父,回到了家。

耶稣说,你若不死亡,就不得重生。若不抛弃这个世界,就无法跟从。我走了,但是会差派圣灵来住在你们心里,做你们的consouler。

圣经说,务要谨守、警醒,因为你们的仇敌魔鬼如同吼叫的狮子, 遍地游行,寻找可吞吃的人。

a bug

spend several hours to debug

and then the fix just took two lines ….

a few lessons:

1) it takes lots of time to understand other people’s code

2) print is very helpful

3) just print as much as possible in the beginning.

one body through fellowship

christian should not walk alone

jesus has 12 disciples

Matthew 18:20 New International Version (NIV)

20 For where two or three gather in my name, there am I with them.”

and all christians are children of god, in the same family

and we are in a single body

Hebrews 10:25 New International Version (NIV)

25 not giving up meeting together, as some are in the habit of doing, but encouraging one another—and all the more as you see the Day approaching.

in other words, christian should not leave social life

otherwise, it will be destructive

jordan peterson said if a kid is anti-social before 4, he will be (very likely) anti-social in whole life and be a destructive person.

you also need other person to keep you sane.

you need other person to get more knowledge, see something you didn’t see by youself

you can also share with other person so living cost can be significantly reduced

and your children are the ones who need social the most

they need to learn to be a playable person, otherwise, they will be rejected by other people after they grow up

that’s also the reason in bible, hospitality is a character of a good person. sodom people has no hospitality, which reflects their sinful nature and thus destroyed by God

a single person is limited, is weak, fragile,

but a group of person is strong and robust

and everyone inside the group can benefit from each other, support each other

what’s your desire?

your desire determine your goal

your desire reflects your value system

human body has many innate desires

some are ok, some are sinful

weak person has stronger desires

human body desire are typically short term

without goal, life is meaningless and painful

with goal, you can transcend pain, you will feel joyful and satisfaction whenever you move closer to that direction

but in the process, you will also have to suffer, you will feel incompetence, out of control, burn out, frustration,

then you need desire to drive you though all the difficulties

you also need energy, need accompany, need wisdom

be strong, be good, be wise

grow up

avoid short term stimulation, like something leads to addition, that will strip your capability to desire your long term goal.

that’s why you should always put God first, align your desire under God’s value system

God’s value system brings life

Human value system brings death

That’s why you have to hit yourself (yesterday’s bible study, colossians 8), discipline yourself.

discipline means working towards your long term goal, sacrifice your short term human desire

otherwise, you will become a slave of your human desire and lose your capacity to achieve your goal

yesterday, the bible study leader also pointed out a good point: unlike the world race, in which only a single person get reward. christian is running heavenly race, and only compare with his old self.

The Need for Self-Discipline

24 Do you not know that in a race all the runners run, but only one gets the prize?Run in such a way as to get the prize. 25 Everyone who competes in the games goes into strict training. They do it to get a crown that will not last, but we do it to get a crown that will last forever. 26 Therefore I do not run like someone running aimlessly; I do not fight like a boxer beating the air. 27 No, I strike a blow to my body and make it my slave so that after I have preached to others, I myself will not be disqualified for the prize.

前天晚上做了一次噩梦

梦见考试别人都做完了,我还不知道有考试,试卷一片空白

我很抑郁,走到一片农田,漫无目的的往前走

没想到昨晚又做梦了

也不知道是不是睡觉前看比诺曹的电影的缘故

梦见我参加一个summit,去一个大屋子,大屋子里面人已经坐满了

我就去另外一个overflow room,里面的主题是前段时间在真实世界里参加的summit。

在真实世界里,我也是取得overflow room,因为主会场人满了。我去晚了。

在梦里面,我有些饿。就在会场外面找东西吃,那个时候正好是一个演讲结束。

下面一个演讲还没开始,屋子里面没人,我就先进去。

接下来的题目不记得了。但是演讲人是我们教会的songbin弟兄。

他很有名气。很快屋子就挤爆了。

主持人说每个人都得交钱。

我意识到我没有交钱。可是该怎么交呀?

主持人说建立微信群,加入微信群支付。

我想,我跟songbin在很多群里。到时候就在某个群里支付吧。

屋子里面很闷,演讲还没开始,我就先出来了。

我感觉我是从科大教学楼出来。已经晚上了。

我要回宿舍。

一号楼。//真实世界里我本科四年都在一号楼

我进去,没有人阻拦我

但是我不知道该往哪儿走

我不知道我的房间在哪儿

我觉得我是一个研究生

我看到很多的学生进进出出

我知道我跟他们不一样,可是我还得找我的宿舍,因为我是研究生

我走到二楼,这个时候碰到大学同学lingqing//现实世界里他留校做教授了

我很高兴,就抓住他,问关于宿舍的事情

他已经有宿舍了

我说你怎么找的宿舍?

他说得交钱

我问多少钱

他说平均来说,两三万(还是二三十万?)

但每个人不一样

有些人赚的钱多,就抽税,让他们多交一些

我这才明白我还没有交钱呢

可是已经晚上了,我去哪儿睡觉呢?

我想起来曾经在另一个梦里面,也在一个楼里面,很多同学本来是住那边的,但是他们后来毕业都走了,我也许可以去那边找个空房间蹭一下

我就下楼,准备过去

我知道肯定会碰到守门的阿姨或者大爷

真的见到了

但是大爷躺在一个大床上,睡着了

我好不容易从他床沿绕过去,似乎碰到他的被子了,也碰到他的脚了

但是他没有醒

我庆幸我自己没被抓到,跑出来了

一出来发现到处都是卖吃的,各种各样的夜宵摊子

很多的学生

我心想一代不如一代,怎么把夜宵铺子都摆倒宿舍楼门口了?

我看见毛豆毛(还有毛豆豆)站在一个大锅边上,等着里面的麻辣烫出锅

说实话我也很馋

我又意识到,我的家不就在附近么?

我为什么不回家住呢?

我的心就放下来,也醒了,发现自己躺在床上。

不知道为什么会经常梦见回科大读书

有一次是梦见自己呆了五年,一年一年的过去,我应该要毕业了,却似乎错过了一些考试

有一次梦见毕业了,人都走光了,我的房间,我的书桌里的书都没有收拾完,有太多的东西,我却很累,没有力气

有一次我梦见回老朱实验室,情景到现在还记得

二十年,真的是仿佛还在昨天

今天又要上班,我知道又有一大堆的活儿等着我,也不知道能不能做完。