about uber engineer suicide cas

I think about this case again and again

他是一个刻苦,勤奋,有天分,并且成功的人

  1. 他是一个黑人 , 不容易。在科技公司里,很少能看到黑人工程师。
  2. 自学成才,不容易。
  3. 在Linkedin做senior sre,不容易。
  4. 他拿到apple和uber的offer,不容易。

然而,他在不到六个月时间里人生轨迹急转直下,最终结束了自己的生命。留下妻子和两个小孩。这是一个疑案。

他的家庭不可谓不supportive。

他也不是没看过心理医生。

他的名字叫joseph thomas,一个很典型的基督家庭的姓名。Joseph是圣经中最成功的一位人物,官至宰相,人生没有任何污点。Thomas是耶稣门徒之一。所以他应该从小接受基督教信仰。

那么为什么还是选择了自杀?

首先看看症状吧:

panic attacks, trouble concentrating and near-constant anxiety

immense pressure and stress at work

别人已经提醒过他,让他退出, 但是

was scared he’d lose his job

All suggested that he leave his job, but he was adamant that he could not

为什么这么惨?

He’d say things like, ‘My boss doesn’t like me.’

He became someone with very little confidence in himself.

老板不喜欢,事情太多做不出来,自信丧失,面临被解雇危险,过去很优秀,辞职就是承认失败。过去的成长经历给他的智慧是是迎难而上,问题都会解决。这种大家眼里最优秀的人怎么有勇气选择退出?

英雄本色里小马哥说过一句著名的话

我有我自己的原则,我不想一辈子被人踩在脚下,我等了三年,就是要等一个机会,我要争一口气,不是证明我了不起,我是要告诉大家,我曾经失去的我一定要拿回来!

作为男人怎么会轻易的承认失败?!

但是现实不是电影。当胜利的希望一点一点流逝,时间一点一点变少,自信也越来越弱,绝望的死神不期而至!

 

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Suicide of an Uber engineer: Widow blames job stress

http://www.sfchronicle.com/business/article/Suicide-of-an-Uber-engineer-widow-blames-job-11095807.phpm//

https://news.ycombinator.com/item?id=14200486

a tragedy that touches my heart and resonate in my mind.

He worked long hours. He told his father and his wife that he felt immense pressure and stress at work, and was scared he’d lose his job. They urged him to see a psychiatrist. He told the doctor he was having panic attacks, trouble concentrating and near-constant anxiety. All suggested that he leave his job, but he was adamant that he could not.

“He was always the smartest guy in the room,” said his father, Joe Thomas. But while working at Uber, “he went down the tubes. He became someone with very little confidence in himself. The guy just fell apart.”

“It’s hard to explain, but he wasn’t himself at all,” said Zecole Thomas. “He’d say things like, ‘My boss doesn’t like me.’ His personality changed totally; he was horribly concerned about his work, to the point it was almost unbelievable. He was saying he couldn’t do anything right.”

youtube playlist download to mp3

$ brew install youtube-dl

$ youtube-dl -f ‘bestaudio’ -x –audio-format mp3 -o ‘%(playlist)s/%(playlist_index)s – %(title)s.%(ext)s’ https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLwiyx1dc3P2JR9N8gQaQN_BCvlSlap7re

for single video

$ youtube-dl -f ‘bestaudio’ -x –audio-format mp3 -o ‘%(title)s.%(ext)s’ https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EZDrOFAZFZo

https://github.com/rg3/youtube-dl

very useful! first tried a few online sites but experiences are bad.

自动化

以前大学系名就是这个

当初选这个专业觉得名字好听

从上大学到现在差不多二十年

觉得“自动化”这个词又回到了起初的目的

所有的软件开发者都是这个世界的自动化工程师

软件的本身目的就是自动化

工作里有太多的非自动化因素

如果不能把很多事情自动化,要么效率低下,要么被大量routine的工作所淹没

google是一家伟大的自动化公司

从gfs, 到map reduce,到data center,背后都是自动化为目标在驱动

一个程序员如果无法把手头的事情自动化,就是不称职的

世界的发展趋势就是越来越多的任务自动化

自动化是提升生产效率的核心要素

自动化的先决条件之一是api

api就是语言

可以说,程序员是具备神属性的一群人

在圣经里,神说,要有光,就有了光。

这个世界的创造,是神通过话语完成。

而一个软件系统的创造,是程序员通过程序语言完成。

人的基因就是一段精密的程序。

这是最好的时代。